Cancer denial help!

The first battle of my life. Stage 4 with 8 weeks to live. 24 years old and the biggest princess 👸🏼 you will ever find that is and was me, atleast I stay that way! How I will never ever know.
So the doctors surgery calls me you need come in now, I am like yeah I am going away for the week. Come in when I get back. I need a break. This is 1988 the 80's
Omg she said doctor said come in now...... ummm ok mum was with me so I said to her. Let's go. Silly me why on earth did I take my mum. I was silly didn't give it a second thought.
Ok so we drive to Gosford. I was living at Narara, it's like a 5 minute drive.
Get into the doctors at Hill street medical. My Doctor - Doctor Catt. A tall slender man, glasses and a very clever man.
He sits across the desk from mum and I.
Nina we have a problem and I haven't seen this before, you have Cancer! I am like WTF what do you mean. Your baby died because the tumour took over!
Holly molly what is he saying to me. Looked at mum in a confused state. She starts to cry. Omg 😲
Then it gets worse.
I am in denial going no no no no it's a mistake.
Yeah right.
Then he says; I have to refer you as I haven't seen this before, it's pretty bad and it's spread everywhere because you were pregnant, then the best news not!!! It's a rare cancer only 1 in 600,000 chance of getting this. In the world there have only been 500 cases, you will be 501.
Ohhhh what I screamed.... I can't win the lottery but I can get this cancer, noooooo can't be.
He shows me the reports tells me I have 8 weeks to live. Now my mum is sobbing. Dam it we are both in denial.
8 weeks to live I am 24 and now I have to be admitted to Henry V hospital. Camperdown.
Dam you cancer, dam everything.
Now we are both crying. Was I having a nightmare ......
now I am in denial and scared to death... 8 weeks are you kidding me.......
I know you all know next
Why meeeee??????!!
#whyme #iamstillawoman #denial #diagnosis #crying #bloddyhell

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