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Loosing being Feminine


What happens when you feel all of a sudden like you are a boy!!!! This is a really deep place I was an E cup natural breasted blonde. I had a great life. All of a sudden in a matter of months it seemed to all slip away. I am a bit of a princess lots of heels jewelry and girlie things. I looked in the mirror and to my horror stood a woman I no longer recognised.
Who are you??? A boy I was looking going who is that in the mirror.
There stood a rather sickly looking flat chested, black under eyes NO eyelashes NO eyebrows NO boobs and NO hair person. I felt rather ill, I looked awful and I wondered what the hell happened.......
We are all different I have a lot of butch friends and I love that they are like that. But I am not and I hate seeing myself like that. I get up in the morning, I do my make up and I get dressed do my hair 100 different ways. Spray Perfume and wola there I am.
Well I realised that you can still do that. On the days I felt well got all dulled up and it is amazing with all the accessories what you can do...a nice necklace, earrings, makeup your wig, nice clothes and some heels well really now you have to look hard to know what I am going through. Also you think people are looking at you going she has CANCER. But they don't know, they are thinking doesn't she look pretty. They don't know, you know as girls we can cover up so many things. We are lucky! So many tricks. I think when you look good you do feel better....

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