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Double Mastectomy - Chest feels dead (why don't they tell us)



Don't get me wrong, I did what I did as we have a Cancer Gene in the family. A double mastectomy. I am really fine in my head space. I don't regret my surgery, although I miss my breasts and nipples and feeling. For me my choice was right!
However my chest feels really strange, its dead feels really abnormal. My concern for others is nothing is explained in full by what does it feel like after surgery. They don't explain what will happen, how it feels. I think that if I did not have cancer twice and no gene I would have had a single mastectomy. These days they are very clever at matching them (the fake and the real one). Also after surgery with a single mastectomy, you have one arm that you can use normal, plus you would have feeling on one side.
I thought I would blog about this feeling, as I got asked the other day by a lovely lady that is really upset about hers she is 45, it is a really weird feeling. It feels abnormal, numb all the time. I dropped a box on my chest I was lifting. It winded me badly. I did not feel box hit me however, I had a massive bruise the next day. It would have hurt if I had feeling.
This feeling I try not to think about I can see how it is an awful thing to live with and it feels weird.
I can see how this would destroy some woman. Me I am ok as had Cancer twice, my fear is overtaken by a serenity I cannot explain. Too much has taken place, I am really happy. But do look into it further, as breast conservation is the best if you can keep one.....I chose not to be upset! Looking in to the future. I find more things that make me happy. Of course I miss my breasts they were apart of me fake is never as good as real, but sometimes its best to say goodbye...

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