Cancer, the pain of holding it all together

I am one of those people that still believes everything will be ok no matter what happens. Cancer is like being hit by a truck, but I still refuse to think that this disease will take me out. I have had Cancer twice in 19 years and I have really been put to the test. But somehow every morning when I wake up I still put my best foot forward.
At 24 years old being given 8 weeks to live really is horrific. I guess I resigned to the fact that I had no children so really it was not going to be a big deal if I was not here. I have a really strong mind and of course I never gave up. However I did tell my doctor that if it came back I would never fight, I would go out in style...with dignity..
19 years later I have a brand new battle. This time my mind told me I was not going to do it. Way too hard. But having 3 amazing sons, an afternoon of watching them encouraging me to be here for them, no one knows the pain better than me of having no mother, as my mother died young.
So I had to put my big girl pants on and get ready for the fight. You know its a bit like that, some days I was knocked around badly, but then lots of days I had my boxing gloves on and I was getting on top of everything. So it makes for an interesting battle.
There are a lot of experts out there, they have never had Cancer but they know all about everything they would do...Baahhhhh
You and I know that this battle is not for the weak and pretenders. It's a really hard battle and Cancer is trying to break us down.
You know after the war and the ashes have all settled, who is left standing? Little old me!
The phoenix rises from the ashes, I dust off my pants and I start to walk home. Tomorrow is a new day and something great will happen, it always does.................

Comments

"Hard nipples" - areola or nipple skin

Someone once wrote"... when i get really cold, or get goosebumbs all over my body, the whole things really scrunch up, like, my entire areola scrunches itself up into a wrinkled little mound. it looks really weird and ugly, and i haven't ever seen other people's breasts do it. what is wrong with my areola/nipples??" The answer: Well nothing is wrong. This is what my areola does too. It's a normal reaction to the coldness or to irritation / stimulation. The little muscles in the areola do a similar goosebump thing as your other skin can do. People often call this phenomenon "hard nipples". Also note that skin on areola has less feeling or sensation to it than other areas of your body. If the areola was very sensitive, then breastfeeding would probably be quite uncomfortable because the baby pulls and tugs it! The nipples are sensitive but the sensitivity changes with hormonal changes, such as occur at mestrual cycle or pregnancy. Also this v...

Kate Jackson Breast Cancer a flash back

THE MOST MOMENTOUS CHANGE IN Kate Jackson's life began early one morning in January 1987, during her fourth season on the hit TV series Scarecrow and Mrs. King. After a phone call informed her that the show's taping was canceled because costar Bruce Boxleitner had the flu, Jackson went back to sleep. When she woke several hours later, "It was out of the blue, but perfectly clear," she recalls. "I sat up in bed and literally said, 'You have to have a mammogram.' " She did, and two days later a biopsy confirmed her vague fears: A minute growth found in her left breast was determined to be malignant. "I was forced to face, squared up, my own mortality," says Jackson. "I had to decide whether I wanted to live or to die. And if you choose life, as I did, it's never the same." For three TV seasons 16 years ago, she was famous as Sabrina Duncan, a girl-next-door gone glamorous and the character critics dubbed the brainiest o...

The four stages of breast development

In Stage 1 shows the flat breasts of childhood. By Stage 2, breast buds are formed as milk ducts and fat tissue develop. In Stage 3, the breast become round and full, and the areola darkens. Stage 4 shows fully mature breasts. (Illustration by GGS Information Services.) period begins. Usually these signs are accompanied by the appearance of pubic hair and hair under the arms. Once ovulation and menstruation begin, the maturing of the breasts begins with the formation of secretory glands at the end of the milk ducts. The breasts and duct system continue to grow and mature with the development of many glands and lobules. The rate at which breasts grow varies significantly and is different for each young woman. Breast development occurs in five stages: Stage One: In preadolescence, the breasts are flat and only the tip of the nipple is raised. Stage Two: Buds appear, breast and nipple are raised, fat tissue begins to form and the areola (dark area of skin that ...

I am still a woman - Confessions of a twice cancer survivor - my journey by Nina Ann McCurley

Search This Blog